is as hard as i thought it would be.
id love to that be that person, to want things easy and keep em that way, to be the girl whos not complicated and whose wants are very clear. but honestly.
im not.
yeah i waited, for a phone call to never come. it was something i told myself i had to do.
but in the end, what did i turn out to be? a fool. waiting for a phone call after one date with a guy who had potential. honestly,
all guys have potential,
potential to disappoint.
will i learn from my now mistake?
maybe, and maybe not
whose really to say.
at this point in my dating "game" aka love mishaps, I've decided to just roll with the punches.
planning love or a connection with some guy isn't bond to work. it hasn't for others and im probably sure with my luck, it wont happen with me.
im not trying to be cynical or pessimistic, just as honest as i could be with myself.
because if not without myself, who?
how will i expect to meet an amazing guy with dreamy eyes you melt over and grin that makes you want to pounce; if im not honest in what will truly make me happy in my young life? because, yes im young and yes, honesty is huge in making it work in a steamy, passionate relationship.
& online dating?!
i did it, i think i conquered it with getting nothing but more knowledge on the ways a mans mind really works. have i come to understand their minds? absolutely not. will i continue to try? of freaking course, conquering the mind of a man is simply winning the battle of all misunderstandings in a future relationship.
ok, ok, im kidding,
maybe.
for now though, keeping it simple is hard,
but its just another thing i got to try at till i get it,and im sure when i get, my life wont seem all the complicated.
lets hope
